Introducing Fressy!

Here are the pictures from the ultrasound! Just a teeny tiny blob right now, but hopefully growing strong! Fred and I had been joking at one point that we would name the baby Fressica, and now the in-tummy baby has the nickname "Fressy", which my mom says she is calling baby (short for Fressica). So here he/she is!

Doesn't look like much yet, but in the second picture, the arrow is pointing to the heart! I wish the next 6 weeks would FLY by, because I want to shout it from the rooftops! :)

YAHOO!!!!

I am so, so, so, so HAPPY!!!!! Baby looks perfect! He/She is about a centimeter long and is measuring right on time at 7w1d! And we saw the heartbeat right away - measuring great at 156 beats per minute! BEST. DAY. EVER.

Fred scanned the pictures, so I'll load them later today. THANK YOU ALL for your warm wishes and prayers! They worked :)

Prayers Please!

Today is the day - finally. Please pray for us and hope that we have a healthy baby growing in there!!

I'm not going to lie - I keep imagining the worst. I've never seen a healthy baby and I just don't know what to expect. I also have had several anxiety attacks and have become borderline hysterical. I just don't know how I'm going to make it to 1:00.

All your prayers and good thoughts are appreciated!!!!

Anxiety

I'm starting to get nervous for our appointment on Wednesday. I just want to know one way or the other if this is the baby for us. I'm praying every day that this will be it! I just am thinking about it all the time. My boss said to me last week, "At least you have a lot going on so you won't be thinking about it." Um, yeah, not the way it works. I wish I was thinking about other stuff, but it's almost like an obsession. I just hope that if this is it, that I will get to a point where I can relax and enjoy it.

Here We Are Again

At 6 weeks, 1 day. Yes, I'm pregnant. Again. I am excited, but also terrified. It's kind of strange to be going through this again. Like I said, I AM excited, but I can't help but feel that OF COURSE I'm going to miscarry again - that's just what happens to me. Someone told me I need to be optimistic. So I'm trying, but I also feel like I need to be realistic and prepare myself in case it does happen again. But I am trying to look on the bright side of things!

One bright side - I am definitely feeling it. I feel like CRAP! How quickly I had forgotten how sick I can feel. I feel like I'm buzzed and hungover all at once, which is pretty interesting. I've started feeling nauseated over the past couple of days and I've been dizzy all day.

When we'll know more - next Wednesday. We have an ultrasound at 1:00 pm and KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED for a heartbeat!!!!!!!

Breakfast

For breakfast this morning, I'm having a 4-cheese Lean Pocket. Don't judge.

Will Post Soon, Promise!

I have been such a naughty duck lately about updating this blog, but I've just been busy at work! I am heading up to Hibbing this weekend with my sister in law, so I will try to update before we leave or after we get back.

Have a great rest of the week!

Timeline

As I read my last post again, I was struck by the line "I have been doing this every month for the past year." That's crazy to me. It's just been such a long journey so far and we have so much further to go. Here is a breakdown of our timeline:

Aug. 2006 - Married! :)
October 22, 2007 - First BFP! Were not trying, but would have that next cycle.
November 2007 - Pg all this month
December 12, 2007 - 11w6d Had some slight spotting - went into Dr. to get checked out, ultrasound showed that baby had stopped developing at 6w1d. Suspected molar pregnancy first, but testing showed that it was a missed miscarriage.
December 13, 2007 - D&C :(
January 29, 2008 - First AF, let's start this over!
February 2008 - Trying
March 2008 - Trying
April 2008- Trying
May 2008 - Trying
June 2008 - Trying
July 2008 - Trying
August 2008 - Trying
September 2008 - Trying, but fed up! Had a Dr. appointment, where we came up with a plan: HSG, then next cycle start Clomid, do cd3 bloodwork, and then a follicle scan.
September 10, 2008 - Had HSG - both tubes clear!
September 26, 2008 - 2nd BFP!
October 28, 2008 - 8w0d - first ultrasound showed only a gestatinal sac. Waiting one week to check on progress. 99% sure it's over.
November 2008 - No progress from last ultrasound, as suspected - a blighted ovum. Had 3 options, chose to chemically induce the miscarriage (Cytotec). Started on a Saturday and then waited.
December 2008 - still waiting.
January 16, 2009 - Faintest BFP ever. Wait until next day, very suspicious of this one.
January 17, 2009 - Still faintest line ever, so faint it's almost imaginary. Not looking promising.
January 18, 2009 - Even fainter yet.
January 19, 2009 - start a new cycle - Chemical Pregnancy. Have to go into the Dr. and get ANOTHER Rhogam shot by the DOL.
February 2009 - Currently in the 2ww.

5 dpo - let the psycho begin! :)

Seriously. And now I'm analyzing every single thing because it *might* be a very, very early pregnancy sign. I'm crazy - I know this. I've done this every month for the past year. At least it's not a new behavior. I am also WELL aware that it's probably next to impossible to be feeling anything this early. It doesn't seem to stop me.

My new fun game is to enter every single little symptom into my fertility friend, because I just want to see how many points I can get! Right now it's at 44, but I bet we can bump that up much higher over the next few days! :)

Yahoo - it's the weekend!

This weekend really couldn't come soon enough! I'm not sure why the week dragged on, but it sure did.

In other news, I'm officially in my first two-week-wait since September! So, internet, that means that we will all be waiting on pins and needles until that 2ww is over.

For non-baby-trying and body-effed-upedness goings on, Fred and I bought a new shelf to serve as our entry-way table! We don't really have an entry-way, but I'm hoping to kind of create one when I put a couple of chairs in the living room to really define the space. The best part about the shelf (besides the fact that I love it) is that we got it for 50% off at Target on clearance (then add on my 10% discount) and Fred had a $100 gift card that he got for staff appreciation. Hooray!