You're damn right I'm an angry infertile. I am sick of the injustices of this "disease." I am sick of being a "victim." I am sick of seeing my sisters fall victim to this disease and listening to their stories and their pain.So if you're out there, this is for you:
Items listed in BOLD are things I'm "guilty" of doing.
If you could make a little house from used pee sticks and OPKs
If you talk in TTC acronyms nobody except people on the internet understand
If you have ever been stuck with any needles in order to achieve pregnancy
If you have had to stick yourself, or your husband has had to turn into your nurse in order to do it for you
If you've ever seen a blank ultrasound screen
If you know what a cootercam is (AKA A Dildo cam:)
If you have ever gotten shower invites, family photos, or birth announcements in the mail and had a good cry
If you have watched someone go through an entire cycle of pregnancy in the time it took you to even try
If you have ever heard "just relax" or "it's not your time" or "it's God's will"
If you dread holidays because you cannot announce a pregnancy to your family
If you dread holidays because there are no children to share them with
If you have ever held a baby or child and quietly pretended for a second that they're yours
If you have ever walked around the store in order to avoid the baby/toddler section
If you cannot park in the front spots of a store because they are for pregnant and expectant mothers only
If you've ever had to go IN the baby/toddler section of a store in order to buy something for someone else's baby
If you've ever yelled out during watching a movie or tv show about someone who's trying for a baby, "That's SO not realistic!" (ALL THE TIME)
If you've ever sat around with a group of women who shared birth stories and labor pains and felt like you didn't fit in
If you've ever told anyone you are infertile and they're response was, "That sucks. I'm super fertile! I can have all the kids I want!"
If a fertile person ever told you that they would be your surrogate because they have no problem getting pregnant
If you have ever gotten a shower invite through email while sitting at work trying to forget about TTC
If you know what an RE is
If you have ever graphed out your cycle on chart paper
If you have ever checked to see if your cervical mucus was eggwhite or clear, or could stretch 5 inches between your fingers and you know people in the next stall over are thinking, "WTF is she doing in there?"
If you were disappointed that you couldn't find any
If you have kept a HPT or OPK in your purse to use when you were at work or out just in case
If you can't wait to see the peak symbol
If you have ever spat on a microscope in order to see ferns
If you laugh when people tell you to use pillows under your butt after sex
If you have picked out crib bedding or nursery decor online and you're not pregnant
If you have ever felt panic when seeing a pregnant lady
If you meet the criteria above, or you'd like to submit your own, please post the following award on your blog. This is for all of the women who will no longer be silent about their infertility. This is to remind you that you need not be ashamed and you are definately not alone. This is to remind you to speak up the next time someone gives you fertility assvice.
I stole this from someone else's blog, since I felt like I was guilty of/had experienced so many of the above statements! TTC are Crazy times, friends. Crazy times.
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